If I was superstitious, I'd think the universe is trying to tell me something. (I'm of course not superstitious, and understand how selective attention works... which just means it's my subconscious that's trying to tell me something. But I digress)
Last night I was watching an episode of Castle where Alexis has a hard time telling coming back to Richard because of her pride and not wanting to disappoint him. It comes with some touching father-daughter reunion. Now today (and keep in mind I don't spend all day watching TV, this is 2 out of 5 things (episodes of various shows) I've watched over the 2 days) there was an episode of Continuum where Carlos's trust in Kiera is waning because of her lies (she's a time traveler, and can't really tell people willy-nilly), which came with a scene of her coming clean and their relationship improving.
I still want to get a job before I myself come clean, although that might jut be an excuse.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Friday, February 21, 2014
I've been meaning to write something (anything) here for a while, but didn't get the chance. Now it's the middle of the night, so I should be getting to bed, but I'm writing this. I'm screwed up that way.
So... my good friend Boris is now renting one of the rooms from me to use as an office, which he immediately filled with his junk. Not unexpected for people who want rooms, I guess, but I was caught off guard.
We went gaming with some Latvians, which was fun. I got complimented on my accent, which is oddly enjoyable (somehow I take compliments best if they are irrelevant.)
I still haven't explained to the folks about flunking out of my Master's. On one hand it's clearly my business, and mine alone. On the other I don't have any idea how to explain that have neither the will nor the ability to go through another degree, the last time was awful, and I felt incredibly cheated when to top it off I discovered the pain and toil I went through was all(most) for nothing. I keep telling myself that maybe I'll enroll next year. But I won't. No, I shouldn't- that would just split my attention, lead to stress and not result in a degree anytime in the next 2 years. I need to get a normal f-ing job and get bored of that instead. The worst thing that could happen is that I'll be hating something I get paid for, instead of wasting my time, and that of my instructors.
Mood: stressed, anxious and sleepy.
So... my good friend Boris is now renting one of the rooms from me to use as an office, which he immediately filled with his junk. Not unexpected for people who want rooms, I guess, but I was caught off guard.
We went gaming with some Latvians, which was fun. I got complimented on my accent, which is oddly enjoyable (somehow I take compliments best if they are irrelevant.)
I still haven't explained to the folks about flunking out of my Master's. On one hand it's clearly my business, and mine alone. On the other I don't have any idea how to explain that have neither the will nor the ability to go through another degree, the last time was awful, and I felt incredibly cheated when to top it off I discovered the pain and toil I went through was all(most) for nothing. I keep telling myself that maybe I'll enroll next year. But I won't. No, I shouldn't- that would just split my attention, lead to stress and not result in a degree anytime in the next 2 years. I need to get a normal f-ing job and get bored of that instead. The worst thing that could happen is that I'll be hating something I get paid for, instead of wasting my time, and that of my instructors.
Mood: stressed, anxious and sleepy.
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